What do I feel about Amberlynn Reid and Chantal Marie (foodie beauty)?!
Jan 15, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukbyeI7VQiA

yeah yeah yeah you're seeing it in
Arabic huh
yes fish yes that's in English oh you
are looking very good job Omar
yeah buddy buddy
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good morning I am freezing it's 35
degrees you guys I am so cool I cannot
get myself warm enough
oh it's 9:45 my counseling appointments
at 10:00 I am running a little bit
behind eating breakfast on the go and
you're probably asking what are you
eating for breakfast Amy turkey sandwich
yes oh it was like babe did you eat
breakfast us I know I didn't have time
he's like I'm making you a sandwich you
can't go out of the house without eating
something you're gonna be hungry I love
my husband I'm so caring so my sweet
baby made me a sandwich to go eat on the
way because the Sun is a body bright
body bright
anywho well I hope everybody had a
wonderful weekend and I hope you guys
enjoy the video that you guys are going
to be seen today about Jeremiah and
Ollie I thought that was a very good
video to do I was like you know what I
think that would be kind of fun you guys
would get a little bit different view
instead of seeing me you would see them
boys so yeah that's why I did what I did
but I really hope you guys are having a
wonderful anyways I just hope you guys
had a wonderful weekend and a fresh
great start to your month it's been a
fantastic start to my morning you guys
the messages that I am receiving are so
amazing
like honestly
you guys make it small worth what I'm
doing you guys are absolutely just
amazing amazing I love every one of you
guys and to all of my new subscribers
welcome welcome welcome welcome thank
you so much for joining our channel
and when I say ours it's because it's
all of ours I am so so happy to see that
my channel is growing again our channel
it's amazing people all of you that are
making this channel so amazing and just
that uplifting I see from everybody is
just absolutely and it's not just for me
it's so many people are gay being
uplifted by this channel and I could not
be more happy to see that happening I
just it's just made my life so much
better and I know there's so many of you
guys that have touched other people on
this channel
from all the encouragement that you guys
give each other it's just amazing to see
that happen even and I I'm so thankful
and appreciative that there are so many
amazing people out there that you know
can still be so positive out lifting to
the ones that are in dark spots that
need that extra hyungdon and extra just
love you know to see that that's
happening on this channel is just
reassuring to me that this channel is
doing what I wanted to do so thank you
I like I was saying I am on my way to
counselling Monday mornin counselling
okay I am just getting out of counseling
that was a good good session good
session once we talked about
get out of here
so cold phrasing only 39 degrees well
anyways no it was a really really good
thing we talked about there is a lot of
stuff that we talked about but one thing
that we talked about was you know people
don't have the right to tell you when
it's time to get over pain and hurts the
only person that can control that or
that should control that is you yourself
because you're the victim you're the one
that you're primarily the one that is
hurt so in return nobody has the right
to tell you that you need to get over
the anger that you need to get over the
hurt that it's time to settle the pain
that you need to set things aside none
of that
especially especially if the person
that's telling you that had a hand in
some of the pain that was caused
definitely
do not have the right to say anything in
that manner and what happens is when
that when that is said to you that can
create some major issues and setbacks in
my case it did not set me back but it
definitely caused me to get more angry
and you know I'm referring to the
conversation I think I had shared in of
one of my videos a few days ago I think
about my mom having conversation with my
grandmother I'm right outside so my
dad's another my mom has not had
anything to do with in 37 years 37 years
you know and she talked to my
grandmother to my yeah and you know what
she tells me
oh they believe you they be like an hear
it in their voice they believe you and
you know
I want to get into a you know this is
her telling me I want to get into a room
where you know we can all sit down and
reminisce and I'm just sitting there
listening to her like really like have
you not listened to anything that I told
you do you not remember the letter that
I wrote you do you understand that and
she in the same conversation she you
know she validates that you know I'm not
saying that you're wrong for you know
being her and stuff but I'm just saying
that you need to really deal with your
anger with them because that's what's
gonna set you aside you know like that's
what's gonna set you back
and you know the thing is with all of
that is you know don't tell me what to
do
especially expecially when it has to do
with like you never want a day in my
shoes ever
she was never sexually assaulted she was
you know yes she was physically abused
by her mother but you know she did not
walk in me any of the shoes that I
walked so for her to have any say-so in
anything is like dude you've seriously
lost yourself if you think for two
seconds that you are going to sit there
and tell me that I need to get over
something like so
it's just yeah but anyway so that's what
we discussed today was just the whole
not having you know not saying that you
know you have the right to
z-bo zit so anyway so that was what my
session was about today is just not
allowing people to think they have any
rights in telling you when you need to
get over your healing process you know
and everybody everybody heals at their
own level
everybody gets over things and I don't
honest-to-god believe that anybody
sincerely gets over any type of abuse
you can learn to cope with it you can
learn coping skills and that's also so
amazing but you I don't believe ever get
over it
it doesn't just put hundreds in erase
out of your mind
the minute you start counseling the
minute you start handling things it
doesn't just go away as much as you wish
it would go away it doesn't just go away
and you know I think that that's what
made me mad that day when she said well
you know you really need to deal with
your anger it's like no no I really
don't
you know I will clearly deal with it and
I am dealing with it hello I am I am
dealing with it but don't set a time
limit for me especially when you had a
hand in my in my hurt and pain don't
don't be the first to tell me that No
so we talked about that because I have
really carried a lot of juice I've dealt
with some definite frustrations with
this whole situation because it's really
upset me a little bit you know and I'm
just you know I I haven't really talked
to her since that time you know I've
reached out to her twice and both times
you know she cut me off basically
because she's busy which so we haven't
really had a discussion
really since that day
and that's okay
honestly it's okay just like whatever
but it was a good session Mike let me
tell you it was a really good session I
am now on my way home and I have no clue
I have some quarters I have got to get
done since my design space was down all
day yesterday I didn't get anything done
that I needed to get done so I have got
a lot to get done today I've got a run
to the post office today email out to
orders
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we're plotting the rest of my orders to
get him out so that's what I have to do
today I don't know what all he has to
know today I think he's just got stuff
to do with her
yeah so anyways so you guys tell me I
want I'm not gonna be able to do
everybody is of course so I'll have to
kind of like pick and choose like you
know I don't know maybe I'll put a whole
bunch in and that's what I'll do I'll
put a whole bunch of ideas in my in a
container little bit and then I'll draw
them out but what I want you guys to do
is shoot me one of your guys's favorite
mils of your family's that you guys like
to make that you want me to make me the
one that doesn't cook I am going to
challenge myself to try and cook some of
your guys's favorite family meals the
only things that are things that we
don't eat is we do not eat pork and oli
is not a fan of broccoli so in corn
broccoli a corner or not his fave but
anything other other than that we're
really good to go I try yeah just send
me whatever it is even if it's not the
healthiest because I can weigh it out
you know what I'm saying like I'll
figure it out but I want to make some of
your guys's favorite family Mills so
start sending them to me and then I will
start writing it down okay hold on just
a second sissy okay hold on honey
it's rough that's right I'll get you a
juice in just a second okay
you suck you're just raw in there okay
can you hold on just two seconds one and
a two and three and four but send them
to me I'll start jotting them down and
then on the 25th so on the 25th when I
do my live I will pull at the same time
the dinners and I'll do up to four
dinners for four different dinners so
and I can't I'm not gonna say when I'm
gonna do them because it just kind of
defend like depends on what's going on
but I will definitely vlog myself making
it okay hold on and then I will vlog
also the family eating it so you guys
see our reaction to it too I think
that's a fun idea so anyways keep an eye
but start making the notes down now so
that I can take the notes down and be
able to can you get them a juice sugar
and that way then I can go ahead and
announce it on the 25th there's gonna be
four dinners that I I will be cooking so
remember no pork broccoli or corn but
other than that it's pretty much free
gaming I'm excited to see what happens
it has been Oh a whole minute since I
checked in with you guys last because I
had to come home finish up an order
because like I was saying Cricut design
was out of service yesterday so I had to
finish an order get that boxed up and
ready for shipment plus I had to get
look at my glasses you wouldn't think
that that would drive me nuts right
once clear and once darker because of
the Sun that's the only thing you don't
like about transition glasses anyways I
got the other two packages in here as
well so we're gonna get everything
shipped off today hopefully and
what else I think that was it there was
anything else I've done I drank some tea
I'm feeling really lightheaded today and
like kinda dizzy and I don't know really
why even in counselling I felt like when
I was talking to her like I would get a
little bit like it's really weird so you
don't know what's going on I don't know
if my iron dropped really bad this month
or I don't know but I'm feeling really
just like come on my body's off or
something I don't know I don't know it's
really weird
so I'm just taking it easy gonna pump
some what I actually forgot my water
bottle great good well I was gonna pump
water I'll just grab the water while
we're out but anyways yeah that's what
we are doing we're gonna tape up the
boxes what do you guys have chicken and
roast actually that is fish and Ross
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yeah you're seeing it in Arabic huh yes
fish good job you guys are making the
food look so yummy
there's
yeah here here's a miniature mukbang I
don't even know paying I don't know what
their calls are you want chili chili
changing oh my goodness
I am currently sitting here in my hoodie
I am freezing I've got two layers of
shirts on with my sweater I look like a
bundle bold well all he's like you look
like a snowflake cuz I have the blue and
the white yes I am freezing it is so
cold I don't know why but it's like my
room well I know why because earlier I
was working and I was working under my
lamp that is still on and it keeps me
really warm and it's like a little
heater wall so I turn to open up my
window because I was so hot and then I
wouldn't I ate and came back and forgot
that my window was open and yeah oh
so anyways excuse the fact that I look
like I'm bundled up ready to go out to
the snow because it's a coal enough to
snow um but anyways I hope you guys all
have a wonderful day I did I did um I
started feeling a little bit better I
remember as honey guys earlier that I
just felt a little black just I don't
know I don't know if it was just I
really don't know what it was but I just
felt really dizzy and I'm not nauseous
or anything just roll lightheaded like
my body felt kind of floaty I don't it
was really weird I just my body fell off
a little bit but as the day kept
progressing I have drink a couple of
these today but actually remember I only
well I mean I feel my water up to here
and then I just fill the rest up with
the no-calorie tea so I'm technically
drinking like
a lot of water and this is my third one
today's so and I haven't let the kids
drink on it so that's a good thing I am
getting more water in and I think that
that's gonna help plus my snacking has
gone down to her min dysley today all I
had was I had a breakfast sandwich for
breakfast and then trying to think I
came home and had the granola bar I had
some raw vegetables with a little bit of
ranch and that's it that's all I had and
then for dinner tonight I had Ollie and
I forgot to take a picture I was going
to because I was videoing the kids the
babies because they were like all into
it so I was recording them and forgot to
take a picture of mine because I got
busy getting moving over so my could sit
down because he actually fished in sure
no not shrimp
he ate fish and rice um
but in bread but for me Ollie made me
air fried tilapia fish and it was really
good it was a little different like the
texture was a little bit different but
it wasn't bad and then I had some he did
do the air fried shrimp a couple of them
and I'm glad he didn't do them all
because know for some reason the air I
don't know we do I think we have to
probably watch a video or something so
he ended up having to fry my shrimp
which is fine it wasn't I just spilled
the skin off of it and ate it anyways
but just without the the skin and then I
had no rice but I did have a piece of
bread with it cheese bread and my tea
so that was my dinner that's all I had
today so I feel really good I feel like
okay I accomplished a day of no snacking
I didn't get like a pure exercise for
say in today because I just didn't
I'm there's really no excuse as to why I
just didn't but I worked for from 3:30
until 7:30 I worked on finally so I
caught up in my legs were like stiff
they were like ah so I was like okay
nevermind I'm not gonna do anything I I
sat way too long though I need to
remember especially when I'm sitting for
multiple hours at a time that I need to
get up like at least once an hour and
walk around and get my blood flowing and
stuff like that just because sitting for
that amount of time my body's not used
to it anymore it used to but now it's
not so I mean even though I'm still
moving my arms are moving everything's
moving my legs aren't and so it's not
getting that blood pumping and so I need
to get back to like reminding myself or
setting an alarm on my phone like every
hour get up and walk for ten minutes you
know just to keep the blood flowing but
yeah and I got so much done today like I
just I feel so accomplished that I um so
what else was I gonna talk to you guys
about oh yes
so okay I'm gonna start this off by
saying I mean no harm by mentioning
either one of these people individuals I
absolutely never ever ever talk smack
about somebody if you want to use that
word I don't talk bad about people I
don't gossip about people I just that's
not my that's not my blood flow but I've
had multiple people come and ask me
about a certain youtuber and how I feel
about this person and you know I I
answer back to one that had put it on
the actual comments but I've been
emailed by previous people asking about
you know my feelings on this person and
and I always respond back pretty much to
the same that I'm gonna respond back on
video excuse me
so there's actually two youtubers
that come to mind that I have actually
reached out to both of them in previous
times one more recently than the other
amber lynn reed is one of them
I've been asked multiple times what are
my feelings on her like what is what is
my feelings on her channel her not her
not her content but my feelings on her
personally and like her personality and
what she says on her videos um so here's
what my reply would be to you guys that
Karis they want to know and I'm sure
there's a lot that probably do because
in a lot of ways me and Amber Lynn have
a lot in common in one way we haven't
calmed them common that we both were in
foster care as a child we have in common
that our parents both of our parents
were absent due to addiction and those
type of things we have in common that
are assessable you know us that have
siblings are not very close to us
hers might be more closer than mine
because mine I totally don't have
anything to do with my sibling by my
choices we have in common that we really
aren't close to any of our family that
it's pretty much us and us alone we have
in common our weight I've been as big as
well excuse me hold on the MIR Fraser I
have not been as big as her but I have
been in the 500s because of my highest
highest ultimate highest weight ever
recorded on medical records is 515
pounds that quickly was whoa gone real
quick because that was just like mm-hmm
you know nabbing but we have our weight
you know we have been diagnosed with
binge eating
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we have a story that we can share that
could touch multiple multiple hundreds
and hundreds and hundreds and hundreds
of people because we are lucky enough to
have a platform that we can reach out to
touch people now here's where we don't
have things in common mmm I take my
weight 100 and million times serious I
know that being big can kill me at any
given time I am not selfish I love
myself enough to save myself I love my
children and my husband my significant
other enough to save myself I've
accepted that I had a problem and I
needed to get help I accepted that I had
a problem and I went out and seeked that
help that took me to call people to get
in contact with my medical to get in
contact with counselors to get in
contact with my health nutrition
counselor to get in contact with my
physician to make a team of people to
rally together with me in the middle and
say okay what can we do here to make a
plan for Amy that she can save herself
find herself create a new Amy and be
able to live a healthy long life I have
a parent that I've made boundaries with
I every day work on a relationship with
my parent is it hard sometimes
it is it really is but I put my foot
work in because I know at the end of the
day as long as I'm trying and I'm doing
what I can do to fix the situation
whatever happens on the other side of
the retriever or the receiver I can't
control that but I know that I am
changing for myself I take my platform
that I have which is right here my
channel I take this platform and I use
it in every ability that I can to make
the most positive steps to help as many
individuals out there not only know that
they're not alone but be there for them
be there for them in every way that I
can so that they know they're not alone
I acknowledge every one of you I
acknowledge your guys's comments I
respond back to you because I love to
you guys have become a part of me and my
life so much that I don't feel like I
have to do that but I love to do that
there is so many differences between me
and amberlynn Reid and myself but we
have a lot in common
so you have two people that on some
levels were equal because we have some
things that are seriously in common but
then you have two people that are on
total different levels I'm not sitting
here Tooting my own horn but the thing
is that I I feel so sad about with
amberlynn is I have reached out to her
multiple times multiple times through
her Instagram
I've tried even on snapchat I tried
through YouTube
I've tried through her email I've done
everything through her Twitter
I've tried every which way possible to
reach her you can't tell me that she's
never seen one of my messages but she's
chosen to use me and to treat me like
like I'm something bad that I'm a threat
and I'm not I'm not a threat but I
wanted to extend my hand and say hey
amber I'm here I know what you're going
through I've been there and I'm there
now I know what it feels like to be
stuck in a home and not be able to go
places because I got too big I know what
it feels like to take ten steps and feel
like you're going to collapse because
your back hurts your knees hurt and
you're so out of breath you can't
breathe I know the fear that walking
even a couple of steps that you're
afraid that your heart's gonna give out
I know the fear when you lay your head
down at night you don't know if you're
going to wake up the next day so you say
your good-byes and your I love yous
because you don't know if you're going
to wake up which nobody does but when
you're living in a body like mine and
hers you really don't know you're
knocking on death's door at any given
time yep you can tell me a hundred-pound
person could die in their sleep yep
you're right you're a hundred percent
right but nine out of ten that 100-pound
person that dies in their sleep died due
to a medical condition
versus someone that died in their sleep
like us we died because of our bodies
that our heart could not continue to
pump this amount of blood and oxygen
through our bodies because our bodies
are so big
I just wanted amberlynn to know that
people care not everybody is against you
not everybody is you know afraid to say
hey I encourage you to continue to make
your changes I encourage you to choose
to do something right for yourself
hey I'm here I'll talk to you I'll be
your friend I'm not a threat you know I
just lost and five months 72 pounds is
that a lot no not considering the fact
that I've got so much to go by do I set
a number and say I'm gonna lose this
amount I did hahaha I did when I said
that I was gonna lose my 100 pound on
the old by the 11th of January and I
didn't make it but I'm still forcing
myself to lose that next amount of
pounds before the end of January which
were coming very close to but I've never
said I am going to lose 160 pounds by
the end of the year don't put that on
your head because people hold you to it
when you weigh
why can't you weigh you have a phone
with the stand you just showed us that
today why can't you stick your phone on
that stand and put it down as low as you
can and tilt it towards your screen are
towards the the way machine or whatever
and get on the skill if that's what
people want to see show them there's not
been one Saturday in five months five
and a half months one Saturday that I
have not stepped on that scale and
showed my channel exactly where I'm at
whether it's a game whether it's a stall
whether it's a loss but you know what my
my subscribers embrace it no matter what
because I'm being honest and honesty can
go so far but when you've broken that
trust with the honesty it's hard to gain
it back I teach my son that all the time
to gain trust with somebody
takes a very very long time but to lose
the trust with somebody can happen like
that
so building that trust back up and and
stepping on the scale and saying hey you
know what this is what I'm at right now
white white why not you know writing it
on a whiteboard isn't showing us
anything anybody can write a number down
on the whiteboard but why not show it
what's the fear of showing it so that
would be my response to amberlynn cuz I
don't have anything against her I don't
have anything against her channel I feel
bad for her I feel sad for her I wish
that there was something I could do to
encourage her but you can lead a horse
to water but you can't force him to
drink it so there comes a point where
you're like okay I've I've tried every
which way I could get on hold of her and
she chooses not to respond ivory spa
I've I've even messaged her on her
YouTube channel I never see her even
respond to one message I couldn't
imagine what you guys would feel like if
I never respond to your eise's messages
and I never acknowledge that you guys
even wrote me a comment like I couldn't
imagine that I couldn't do that to you
guys because you guys mean so much to me
and I love chatting with you guys I love
learning everything about everybody
that's on this channel it's important to
me I take this so seriously and it's sad
when you have somebody that has such a
huge platform that could be such a good
potential to help so many people but
they just ignore they ignore the help
that's out there that's they're willing
wanting to help I would love to
talk to her and tell her what I've done
so far to lose the 72 pounds I don't
think what I've done has been anything
that would trigger my binging in fact I
haven't benched but the very beginning I
want to say like the first month or yeah
I'll say the first month that I started
my journey I had one binge one binge
episode and I have a binge sense so what
I'm doing and what I'm what I'm working
on is obviously working and that's what
I want to see happen and I wish I could
extend my hand to amberlynn and let her
know that there are others that suffer
with the same thing she suffers with but
she chooses to turn her cheek and never
listen and that's what's so sad so when
people ask me what do I feel about
amberlynn and her channel I'm just sad
I'm sad that she has such a huge
platform and she doesn't use it not for
the ways that she could use them is she
perfect no she's not
nobody is everybody makes mistakes
everybody messes up especially when
you're in the spotlight you have more
eyes looking on you than you could
imagine but there should be more of a
reason to want to stick it out even not
much more to prove to yourself that you
could do it and to show others that they
can do it too
I would think but I guess maybe I'm
different I don't know I don't know and
just like the other you know youtuber
that I was talking about she kind of
switched her name she was known as
foodie Beauty and now she's known as
Chantal Marie I believe and I you know
I've watched her channel off and on
eight I know watched it all if I can
talk I don't watch it all the time but
once in a while I'll catch a video here
and there and she recently went on a
21-day water fast where she 100% stopped
eating anything no food whatsoever in
her mouth just drink water and that was
it and when I heard this when she put
this on there and and I was watching it
the first thing that came
- my mind was well this is already a set
to fail and so I listen to her talk
about how good it is and how you know
she's so committed and you know I know I
I was like well maybe she will do it
maybe you know again Chantel Marie if
you guys don't know she's another
YouTube channel that is wants to lose
weight but her channel kind of has
flopped from back to forth she was doing
mukbangs and then she went back to
losing weight and then she kind of went
to like a makeup Channel and our beauty
Channel and then now she's back to a
weight loss channel I think I like I
said I don't really know a whole whole
whole lot about her because I just kind
of gave not know I know I didn't give up
watching her but it just was really
confusing so I didn't really understand
cuz I just you know I don't know anyways
back to what I say I started to rap a
little bit um but with her you know
seeing that she was doing this 21 day
fast I've seen others and I've heard
others do it and to me I when you have
somebody that's wanting to do a 21-day
fast but suffers with binge eating and
suffers with an eating disorder and
suffers with a weight problem those are
the ones that I would be mainly
concerned about saying this is a set for
fail and I you know before I started
this journey I did the whole looking up
googling cabbage soup diet vegetable
soup diet oh my gosh what else I think I
looked up every type of fad diet out
there that you can look up to lose
weight I may start it and I may stick to
it one or two days I don't even know if
I'm at and managed to stick to it I
think I got to the part of googling it
and screenshotting what I wanted to know
about it and then never falling back to
him but anyways um she made it six days
okay that was great but she didn't make
it any longer she couldn't she couldn't
physically do it because again she's on
the phone on her
camera one point talking about how she
was you know thinking about you know
fast food and food and going through the
whole list of all the the fast foods and
on and on and on and all this stuff and
then the next days she was eating and in
that same video that she started eating
she went to a restaurant and had a full
plate of food
and I'm just like okay so you went from
a 21-day fast to you're gonna break the
fast by just drinking fruits or
smoothies sorry to the next video you
are eating a full plate of food like
where in the world did this whole 21-day
fast go it didn't work why cuz it's a
fad diet you cannot do a diet and stick
to it for a lifetime my thing is is okay
so she says well I'm gonna go on a
21-day fast diet and then I'm gonna do
where I introduce foods back to me okay
again you're talking to a binge eater a
binge eater either minute you put food
in that person's mouth they're going to
binge it and they're going to eat
they're gonna break and they're gonna
eat it's a disorder for a reason that's
why it's called a binge eating disorder
it's something you have to deal with
going on a diet is not gonna heal your
brain it's not gonna take away the fact
that you're a binge eater
going on a diet isn't going to do
anything but set you back milling time
steps that you're gonna have to make up
at the end of the day anyway so you
might as well take the ring and say no
you know what I'm not gonna do it 21 day
fast or whatever I'm going to do this
I'm going to go on to my doctor because
obviously if she says she hasn't been
cheating dis or she must have been
diagnosed I would assume like me I was
diagnosed it's on my medical records I
have a binge eating disorder am i proud
of it
heck no do I want to get it erased oh
yeah I do
but I'll always have that I will always
have the ability to be a binge eater if
I allow myself to put my guards down and
get too comfortable yeah I could go
right back to square one and be binging
all over again but I refuse to do that
I'm not going to do that
and why is because I started a journey
and it's called a lifetime journey that
means that I have changed my life 100%
so that I don't retreat back to those
old habits because I don't want to fail
out on this there's no going back
because this is my lifestyle I wake up
in the morning I know what is expected
of me for my eating I know there are
days that I eat a little bit more than
other days but it all balances out and I
don't binge out on it I can have a snack
and know like today when I came home and
had a granola bar before I would have 5
to 6 granola bars at one given time now
I don't do that I can have one granola
bar and be completely content I can have
raw vegetables and not think that I have
to go from raw vegetables to a candy bar
because raw vegetables didn't taste as
good now they taste fine to me because
my body has been gotten the
ability to get used to it that now it's
just part of my snacks and my kids eat
it too but if I would have put myself on
a 21-day fast and the mentality of even
doing that I could not I don't think get
myself to last probably I don't even
think I made it six days to be honest
but if I did make it that I would
probably have gained 30 pounds by the
time I broke that fast because I would
have went in ate every single thing that
I told myself I couldn't have within
those six days I would have just to
prove a point to myself to my inner ami
that I can have those things so in
return diets don't work they're not
something substantive all you have to
start from the beginning and start from
the bottom and work yourself up it's
like climbing a hole you're gonna climb
it and you're gonna climb it and you're
gonna climb it until you finally come
out on top
am I out on top absolutely not I'm still
climbing my hole I'm still I'm still
trying to get out of this but I've made
it a long way from where I've ever made
it before I've never ever ever lasted on
something like this but again it's
because it's not a diet
it's a life change I want this so bad
and I
desire my change is so bad that I'm not
looking for a quick fix what does 21
days gonna do to you
shrink your stomach okay and you think
for two seconds that your stomach ain't
gonna go back even a person that has
gastric bypass you can stretch your
stomach back out gastro bypass is not
going to do anything to take away all of
the mental and emotional issues that go
along with your eating disorder
don't tell me somebody that's four three
four five hundred pounds doesn't have
emotional issues with food someone that
is that big does not just not have a
problem there's a problem and to me I
think it's sad that sometimes I think
people get gastric bypass before they're
even ready to have it and they think
that it's a magic pill it's just gonna
happen you know you're gonna get the
surgery and you're gonna be fine
no you're not you will learn to stretch
that pouch out and go right back to the
way you were I know probably close to
nine people that I've had gastric bypass
and probably nine out of those ten have
gained every pound back and the the one
that I know that had the guys are bypass
the only reason they've kept the weight
off is cuz they do drugs so that's more
reason why they keep their weight off
not because they've learned anything so
21 days fast yeah I might shrink your
stomach mentally but when you start
eating girlfriend that's that stomach's
gonna reach right back to where was that
if not bigger because you then are going
to binge it out and the thing is that's
really sad is I even commented on that
video that you know dieting isn't a way
of life that it takes a life journey to
change you want to have a change of life
not just a diet and I said a whole bunch
of things that were so positive and do
you know that Chantal went in and
deleted that and I even told her I put
the link of my video and our my channel
and said come and search my channel come
and watch me for a little bit see maybe
what I'm saying maybe will touch you we
have a lot in common she deleted my
comment she didn't want to she don't
want to see it
pretty sad I just want to help people
that's all I want to do I'm not a threat
to people me losing weight is not a
threat it should not be a threat I just
want to see people happy I want to see
people live a life full of happiness I
want to see a person live their life to
the fullest they're not gonna do it if
they keep turning their face chidden you
can lead a horse to the water but you
can't force him to drink it and that's
what I have to say about those two
channels I got the hiccups um so yeah I
mean I don't mean to go into a big old
ramp but it's just you know I've had a
lot of people like I said ask me about
amberlynn rates Channel and what I
thought about it and that's that's where
I'm at with both of those channels is
it's very sad that I have reached out my
hand to both of them maybe because they
see me as an amateur maybe that's why
because my channels small so I don't
know what I'm doing I don't know what
I'm talking about and maybe I am maybe I
maybe I am an amateur maybe I don't know
what I'm talking about but at least I'm
trying to show that I care and you would
think that I would get some type of a
response but both of them have turned
their cheeks on me Mike okay I tried I
tried I'm not gonna keep putting my neck
out there for it to get chomped I'm
gonna continue to do what I'm doing I'm
gonna continue to go on my journey and
hope that I'm helping other people out
there that truly want to see a change
because we're doing this all together
and it's so much fun it's fun watching
my life change right before my eyes it
Sam it's scary sometimes actually scary
sometimes that I'm like oh my gosh I am
walking through the store and not too
long ago I was in a car I couldn't even
walk now look where I'm at oh my gosh
when I turn the steering wheel my
stomach's not stopping the steering wall
I can actually turn the steering wheel
and it turns because I'm not touching it
anymore
that's awesome change is awesome and I
wish others felt the same way any boo I
love without um so I'm gonna go and take
a shower now
because it's late and I really need to
take a shower
um tomorrow what is tomorrow Tuesday uh
I have to go get blood work tomorrow
because I have my doctor's appointment
on the thirty
yeah the 30th I have it's just like an
all-over physical of checking my glue
close glue I don't even know how to say
it anyways my blood Sugar's I think
that's what it's called my thyroid and
my cholesterol and all that good stuff
so I have to go tomorrow and go and do
some blood work and I think I think
that's it I have one package definitely
I have to get out into the post office
tomorrow cuz I didn't get her address in
time when I went today but I did get my
two packages out today I have one going
out tomorrow I've got more work to do I
am so excited you guys I've got so many
things to announce here so soon I'm so
so so excited oh my gosh I am so excited
to share with you guys some amazing
amazing exciting news but I can't share
yet but I will be soon um also don't
forget we have our life coming up on the
25th so make sure you're getting your
names in so that I can have you guys in
for the drawing for the giveaway for
this month and also don't forget to send
me one of your favorite family meals
that you guys eat but just make sure it
doesn't have pork broccoli or corn in it
other than that we're good to go and I
can't wait to record and show you guys
me cooking it and then other than that I
think that's it I don't know what again
but all tomorrow in stores but I'll take
you guys along to the doctor's office
for my blood work tomorrow but anyways
alright I hope you guys are having a
wonderful evening and that you enjoyed
following me around today and
came with us and listening to me rant
and rave well I really wasn't right in
Arabia I just wanted to answer it on an
open platform so that maybe if Chantel
or amberlynn watch my videos I don't
know what they do if they do this
message is for you guys I'm here you
guys can contact me my emails in my
description I'd love to talk to you guys
and if they don't watch well maybe one
of you guys can tell them that I made a
video to send them a message but other
than that that's all that I've got to
say so I will check in with you guys
tomorrow bright and shiny in the morning
all right you guys sweet dreams oh my
